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[theshortestbird]

"Hey, you've reached Tim. I can't pick up right now, but leave a message and I'll get back to you when I can."

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[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

It was Kurt. He made he get clean.

But it's not easy. I still think of them, especially because I've been so tired lately. I just want to sleep the way that they made me sleep.

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

[He knows. He sleeps like the dead. He feels so good when he wakes up...]

...You're really lucky to have him around. Maybe you can try taking something to help you sleep? Or something natural to sleep, like extra melatonin.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking I need to, but then I also think the problem isn't sleeping so much as staying awake. I'll sleep for hours and hours and it never feels like enough...

You took the pills too, didn't you?

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

[He's silent for a long time; it's actually hard to tell if he's still on the line, and when he comes back on, he's quiet.]

Yeah. I... I'm still taking the pills, sometimes.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

[after a moment] Do you need help? Do you want to get clean?

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

...No. It's not that I don't want to be clean. I want to be, and I should. [Pauses.]

I just. I like being happy. Is that so bad?

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

I think it might be important to find something else that makes you happy.

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

I think you're right. [Laughs softly.]

I just... it's kind of a difficult situation, right now. But I'm making sure to check myself, and if anything happens, I'll go straight to the hospital.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

Have you thought of going anyway?

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

[A long pause before he huffs out a sigh.]

I can't talk about why I can't go right now. But I can't go right now.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

That's okay. It's not my place to pry, okay?

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

...Thanks. One day I'd like to share, but, for now, it's better if you don't know.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

If you are ever ready to share, I'm here.

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

Sounds good.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

There's no pressure though, okay? Don't feel like you have to share anything just for the sake of obligation.

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

I don't. [Pause.] That came off the wrong way. I mean, I understand.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

It didn't. I understand. For now though, we can talk about less depressing things?

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

That would be great. So. How about those Yankees?

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

I admit I know much more about football...

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

Really? Did you play any?

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

A little. I'm much more of a fan, to be honest. I love college football the most and knowing a bit about the game helped out some of my friends when half their high school team quit.

[theshortestbird.livejournal.com]

Really. That's kind of cool! I like football, though I played tennis, when I had the time. But there's nothing like going to a football game on a cold night.

[mediumdrip.livejournal.com]

We should try to make it to one here.